Hormones

I have noticed in the last week that those pregnancy hormones are definitely starting to play games with me. I am beginning to get increasingly over emotional about certain things and have to keep reminding myself that it really isn’t that bad…must be the hormones. Most of my little freak outs lately have had to do with Syd or the upcoming baby. The latest one started with Sydney. She has stopped calling me Momma all of a sudden and has changed my name to Mom. Doesn’t seem like that big of deal, right? Well, I hate it. Momma is so cute and babyish and when I hear Mom it gets me depressed that she is growing up too fast. Then this gets me depressed that Syd won’t be my little baby anymore when the next baby comes. Then I get sad that I won’t have as much one on one time with Syd when the baby comes, making Syd and I not as close as we are now. And then it all escalates to her being a teenager tomorrow and being embarrassed to be seen with me. All making me wonder if I should have had another kid and just keep Syd as my little baby forever. I then worry about not loving this kid as much as I do Syd thus causing this kid to resent me. At this point in the thought process I usually start to feel horrible that I questioned having the next kid and I feel like a horrible Mom. OK, time to remind myself that this is all hormones. Brandon thinks I am retarded worrying about such things, but it just creeps into my head. I can’t make it stop.
On the other side of the hormone story, I think I am entering into that nesting phase. I have a constant desire to reorganize the shelves or do some major cleaning project. Most of the time about half way in I realize that I am tired and can’t do it all right now but then it just drives me crazy that it is still unorganized. Then I get depressed that I was worrying about organinzing the shelf instead of just playing with Syd and the whole “You are a horrible Mother” thought starts over again. I think I need a day at the spa.
On another topic, I am now entering the eighth month of te pregnancy so have been trying to plan a few baby things out. My big worry now is what to do with Syd when I head to the hospital to have the baby. Our neighbor has volunteered to take her anytime of the day but not sure if that is what I want. Our luck she would be out of town for the weekend and Syd would have to go to the hospital with us. Which I am sure the picture of me in pain would really freak her out. So, I asked my doctor what she thought about trying to get my Mom here in time to watch Syd while we head to the hospital. How do you plan these things? She said they would have no problem inducing me one week early so that we could have Mom come out on a certain date. Sounds good I thought. The down side…if my body doesn’t take to the induction it could result in a C-Section. Definitely not what I would want. Though she thought that since Syd was born just a couple of days after her due date, and I had no problems with starting labor, there was very little chance that the induction would not work for me if close to the due date. Not sure what the best answer here is. I would really like my Mom to be here so there are no worries with Syd, but afraid of the C-Section. Any thoughts from people who have had inductions?
Ok, enough baby talk. It is making me freak out again 🙂

Homebody

We just got home from our visit to the ole homestead San Jose once again. I think that is the last flight I will be able to take for quite awhile so I am stuck at home for a good 6 months. Too sad. At least next time Syd wll have her own seat on the plane which will be a lifesaver.
I love going back to visit Silicon Valley and my mouth had been watering for a month in anticipation of the upcoming scarfing that was about to occur. We ate at Fiesta Del Mar, our favorite Mexican place in the world, twice. We made it to Max’s for the desert, Hobbees for coffee cake, Burrito Real for what else but really good Burritos, and my favorite Mongolian joint which is a true dive but great. Why can’t we get real ethnic food anywhere else but California? From this entry its no wonder we each gained about 30 pounds while living there. The weather was also awesome as always and there is always so much to do.
Another thing I miss from California is all the expressways. I had fun zipping around town at 70 miles an hour in heavy traffic and getting anywhere fast. I can’t stand how you have to drive through so many city streets and traffic lights here in Colorado. But, why does California make you stop at every traffic light when you are off the expressway? Drove me insane. Must be to keep you on the expressways.
Only bummer for the whole trip was that we forgot to pack the stroller. This meant that I had to carry Syd while also lugging a diaper bag all around town. Normally, she wants to walk all by herself but I think she was so tired from all the running around that she wanted Mommy to carry her. When indoors I tried all the tricks but none would work. I would just walk away waving bye hoping she would follow. She would respond by lying down on the floor in the middle of the walkway yelling no Mommy, not budging. I would try the “Let’s Race” and slowly run down the aisle and she normally chases me. Same lying down response as before. I even resorted to the “Wow, there’s Elmo let’s go get him”, she didn’t fall for it. So I carried her and the diaper bag around and sat down a lot for rests. Amazing how hard it is getting for me to carry her now that I am getting further along, just kills me.

More Baby News

I have kinda slacked on the baby diary so here is the latest news. I am a couple of weeks into the third trimester now so I finally feel like I am in the final stretch. And speaking of stetch, I am definitely starting to get pretty big. I am finding it nearly impossible to bend over anymore and my gut is feeling pretty tight already. This kid is much more active than Syd ever was and flips around all the time. I am hungry constantly and think I could put a horse to shame with the amount of food I think I need. Though its in lots of small meals since my stomach gets full so fast. I am now up to about three bathroom breaks in the middle of the night. Luckily, I haven’t had the hot flashes I had with Syd or at least I think so. Since I am not at a workplace with the heat cranked its hard to tell. Brandon hasn’t said anything about how cold I keep the house at least. If I sit more than 20 minutes on a hard chair my crotch hurts so bad that I can hardly walk. Worried that something was wrong I asked my doctor about it. He told me that this is common in second plus pregnancies from the tendons being so stretched out in the first pregnancy with a big kid. My doctor visits are now every two weeks and so far the measurements put me exactly in line with my due date. Other than that I have been so busy with other stuff that I really don’t have much time to think about being pregnant too much.
We just started to tell Syd tht she is getting a baby though I don’t think she really knows what that means. We show her how big my tummy is getting and tell her its the baby. Her usual response is to either kiss the baby or tap the baby over and over again nicely. We just ordered her big girl bed so when that comes in March we can get her started on her new room. Its definitely going fast now. I am getting a little freaked at how it will be with a newborn again. But, am also getting really excited to finally see her. I think Syd will love having a baby around most of the time.
I have been getting requests from some perverts in Indiana for belly shots. Here you go ladies! Maybe I will send you one a month for comparison until its here.

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Who Is this Lady?

Ok, we are finally back home and trying to get back into the swing of things. Last week, Syd and I had to unexpectantly fly home for Gram’s funeral. Since her death was so unexpected that definitly took a lot out of everyone. But, gotta say passing in your sleep is a great way to go. Syd always makes me think of my Grandma Knox since we lost her during my first pregnancy. So I think this time around we can all think of Grandma Coburn with this little girl. I have to admit that it freaked me out a little to have lost a Grandma with both pregnancies.
Onto another topic….I have been running around like a crazy woman trying to get everything ready for this basement refinishing. I have to pick out absolutely everything that is going in there and feel like I need to get a few quotes to save a buck or two. I don’t know how those people with custom homes do it all themselves. Here is everything we have to get before they start Feb 10th just so you see where I am….carpet, bar cabinets and granite countertop, bar sink, bar fridge, bar faucet, shower, toilet, sink, bathroom light, bathroom floor, towel and toilet paper racks, laminate floor for gym, paint color, and everything for the home theatre including the projector, screen, speakers, gadget case and God knows what else. The carpet, cabinets and countertops are taking forever. Every place you go is at least a two hour stop and then the quotes are all over the place. I hope to lay them all out later this week and just get it done. Oh, and there is that little toddler running around like mad throwing all the little sample sheets on the floor as Mommy chases her around yelling. Did I mention that we are in California all next week?
Anyway, this has brought me around to my real topic for today…I think I am losing it. Here is an example of what I am talking about. Yesterday, I called Lowe’s to make sure I could see a cabinet designer. (I had driven the 30 minutes down there the day before and there was nobody working the department, so I was a little pissed.) As I am getting ready to get out of the car I decided to grab a sip of water and totally missed my mouth and spilled it all down the crotch of my pants. So now I look like I peed myself, lovely. I get Syd out of the car and go inside. The guy in the cabinet department then tells me that it will be at least an hour wait to see him and that I should have made an appointment. Ok, this is why I called you first you idiot. Oops, he said I remember you calling but this lady just walked in and I have to help her. After more of my ranting the lady decided to make her own appointment and I was helped. The kid was real nice but must have been new because he couldn’t figure out how to work the computer fully. I was patient the first 45 minutes, Syd was being good coloring so all was well. Then, for no reason I started to feel dizzy and had to have them get me some water. Syd thought we were leaving so she started running around and was ready to go. The water did the trick but Syd was still running around and we were not done yet. Mad that I wouldn’t leave she starts pointing at me yelling “Sniy”, not sure what that meant but sounded like Nazi German code. Seeing this didn’t work she begins pulling all those formica color samples off the wall and throwing them at me. So I run after her putting the samples back up and trying to get her to play nicely some more while the kid stares and tries to figure out his computer again. She then spots the water cooler and begins to lift the spicket to pour water on the floor while she simultaneously wipes snot all over the cooler. Now throwing the final straw, she walks up to a group of men working, turns around, pulls down her pants including diaper and laughs hysterically as she moons them all. Imagine how this looked. An airhead woman with peed pants unable to control her toddler and pregnant with another one.
Point to this story…I have become one of those Moms who you all look at disapprovingly. Running after her kid who is mooning the staff and obviously not the one in charge of the situation…with another kid on the way. At least I own up to the fact that yes I sometimes have no control over my kid but you’d better learn how to do your damn job so that I don’t have to become one of those Mothers. I take the brunt of the responsibility but I don’t think its too much to ask for others to help out a pregnant Momma every now and again. I think it may be time to start spanking occassionally but just can’t bring myself to do it. Is this good or bad?
Thank God I am done getting those long quotes. But think I may just leave Miss Syd at home with Daddy from now on.

Listen to Your Wife, Dammit!

So, my hubby always has this thing with wanting to take our dogs over to the neighbors houses when he is going to be over there for a couple of minutes. I think this is an absolute idiotic thing to do. So I am always yelling at him to leave them home. Who wants our two uncontrollable dogs running around the house getting into absolutely EVERYTHING they can reach? And don’t even get me started on the fact that everyone has real wood floors and what 8 paws can do to that.
On with the rant. Last night our neigbor called to ask Brandon to come over and help him with a computer problem he was having. I was in the kitchen eating, again, and didn’t see Brandon leave the house. Thirty minutes later Brandon came running into the house asking me frantically for the Nature’s Miracle . Nature’s Miracle is our magical carpet cleaner that can get up anything. Here is a log of the coming dialogue.
K: Why do you need that…. I asked confused.
B: Dakota just took a major dump and pissed all over Jenns’ living room carpet.
K: Why was Dakota over there in the first place Brandon.
B: I took her over and besides, I don’t have to listen to everything you say.
K: Why do you think people want your dogs running around their house?
B: He brings his dog over to our house
K: No, he always leaves his dog outside, I let her in because she just sits at his feet and never moves. Is that how your dogs behave.
B: Well, no they ran around the whole house, even went upstairs for a bit. Then they were making the other dog upset so Jenn had to take her for a walk while we were there. During the walk Dakota must have been marking her territory.
K: So, you take the dogs over and don’t keep an eye on them?
B: Shut up! I will never take them over again. Besides, they should have watched the dogs while I fixed their computer.
K: Smart. Next time just listen to your wife…dumb-ass!

Its A ???

Today, the whole family went in for the big 20 week ultrasound. The office had a new ultrasound machine so we got to see all sorts of cool new things that we didn’t have with Sydney. We were even able to record the whole thing on CD-ROM, no more VCR tapes, hooray. First, here is a short clip of the heartbeat.

Next, we moved on to tour all the different body parts. This is where the doctor measures all the vital organs for size and looks for any deformities. All looked good for this kid. This is also where you take a look at the gender. Again, the sex was very easy to see on this kid so we are positive on the outcome. This doctor has only guessed wrong twice in his 20 years of practicing. And those children both had health problems which took his focus away. You will have to take a look at the video to figure this one out for yourself.

Finally, we moved over to the new 3-D Ultrasound machine. We didn’t get this with Sydney so this was really cool to see. You can see the face and body much more clearly. You actually get skin instead of just the bones and internal organs. We are a little scared though because at this point we think this kid is either half alien or cat from the looks of it.
See if you can pick out a few things. In the first part of the video the kid has its hands on either side of the face and is kicking its feet way up into its face nonstop. At about 1:43 it has a big yawn. In the later part of the video it has its legs curled up underneath itself.

Syd enjoyed the first five minutes or so and then fell asleep on Daddy’s lap for the remainder of the ultrasound. I think she thinks we are full of sh** after telling her that was the baby on the screen. She did humor us though saying Be Be and pointing, but looked quite confused at what she was seeing.

Fourth Month

Well, I am into the fourth month now and feeling a million times better then just a couple of weeks ago. I had another quick OB checkup last week. They took blood for the quad screen test which tests for down syndrome, spina bifada, and other neural tube defects. I don’t put too much thought into this test since Syd’s came out with a high chance of down syndrome. She did turn out a little goofy but not too bad. The test is extremely sensitive so if your due date is not exact you can come out with a false positive. Haven’t heard anything yet. The heartrate is still in the high 160’s. The babies size measured about a week bigger then my due date. So maybe this means its gonna be another big kid, oh great.
My belly is starting to stick out more though I don’t think others can totally tell yet unless I am wearing a tight shirt. I am carrying really high again so it kinda just sits on top of my belt line. I have also started feeling the kid move around a bit but it is still very faint. It did flip out big time once after eating Mexican food. It was so hard it made me stop, bend over and grab my stomach in amazement. Felt like someone gave me a quick hard jab. About an hour later I vomited up my entire dinner so it must have been a warning flip telling me it didn’t like that hot sauce.
We are leaving Thursday for Michagan to visit the Burkes and then turn right around a few days later for Mexico. The day after getting home from Mexico is the big ultrasound. Look for photos of the hamburger or turtle then. If we’re lucky we will also have one of those new digital photos of the actual face. Too cool.

Could it be a Little Sister for Syd?

Well, we are now a couple of weeks into the second trimester and I am definitely feeling a lot better. I still have trouble eating in the evenings and get a little queasy at night. But, during the day I feel good most of the time. It’s about freaking time!
I had my OB checkup yesterday and everything is right on track. It was a very quick 20 minute visit where they take your stats, measure the baby, and listen to heart beat. The baby’s size is right where it should be and the heart beat was strong in the 160-170’s.
For all you ladies out there who believe in old wives tales, the heart rate is in line for a little girl. They say girls have higher metabolism thus leading to a faster heart rate. Though, I don’t know how much stock you can put into these things. Anything over 140 bpm is said to be a girl and below is thought to be a boy. I think this news would make little Miss Syd very happy. At the moment, she is afraid of boys because they are too rough. I think it would be nice for Brandon to have a boy. But, the thought of a little boy wildly running around, beating everything up, really scares me. I know you would probably get used to it, but still scares me.
We have our ultrasound scheduled for Nov 29th, Daddy’s birthday, so we will know the sex for sure. Until then its fun to guess.
On another topic, I got our vacation to Los Cabos, Mexico booked this week. We are both really excited and can’t wait to just chill on the beach all day. We are going the entire week of Thanksgiving, just the three of us. I did talk to the doctor on what to not eat in order to avoid the dreaded montezuma’s revenge while in Mexico. He gave me a list of medicines to take just in case I got sick and I am all set on what foods/drinks are okay. He also said I was going in the perfect time of my pregnancy if just in case I did catch something. But, since I have never gotten sick in Mexico before I am not too worried. Would have been nice to go in January again but that would be too late he thought. Syd loves the beach so I know we will have a blast.
Lastly, we found out a couple of weeks ago that my sister Steph is pregnant again as well. She is 6-7 weeks behind me so it will be fun to have the little guys so close together. Syd is absolutely ecstatic with the news. Something about revenge on a Partaker will be sweet, while also muttering Christian’s name. Not sure what this means 🙂 Christian’s older bros often call him petrie dish referring to his conception, its kinda funny right? So it is great that this little guy won’t have to deal with that. Someone out there must have really wanted Christian to have a little bro.
All for now.

We have a heartbeat!

Syd and I went in for our follow-up OB appointment today. Everything with the tests from last week was fine. The doctor gave me my physical exam and after feeling my belly he said, “you are definitely very pregnant here.” Not sure if this was a suddle way of saying, oh boy you are getting fat or just small talk 🙂 We got a definite and very strong heartbeat of 180 bpm right off the bat. So that made me feel my first bit of excitement about things for the first time. Syd did really good and didn’t even cry when Mommy got up on the table in her stir-ups. I think she was wondering why this man was looking at Mommy’s crotch with a big bright light. I think she will have questions for Daddy when he gets back from Califrnia tomorrow. Next visit is in 4 weeks.
Three more weeks and counting until the first trimester and hopefully the nausea are over… I again stopped taking my vitamins and feel a little better. Am able to keep breakfast down only if I don’t take the vitmains. Now we just need to work on keeping dinner down.